I am finding less and less time to write. SO much going on.
Career: I'm currently working on a job application. I think there's too much bullshit going on at work. And even though I just got my new office, I think I want to leave. I love the job but the bureaucracy and politics isn't making it easy for me to do my job to its fullest. It really sucks when I like the job but I can't do it properly.
And to be in social work is stressful as I can see some of the things we initiated just go downhill because of the organization or from staff who are just in it for job security.
I miss passion. I miss being around ambition. I miss REAL challenges.
So my United Way stint is done but I am applying for a social change program at the Maytree Foundation. My interview went well and work is offering to pay for it so I'm at least happy about that.
But let's hope this new job will come through. I need a change and travelling to Rexdale each day is killing me a bit. I think I'm not as gung-ho as I was when I first started. Which is understandable.
Art: Not doing much except for some band shots. I am having trouble finding time to do the shoots. Which is totally making me look flaky. Which I hate. I love the band and ideally, I just want to quit my job and be their photographer on tour. Let's hope they get bigger in 2006 with the release of their new album.
And I have lots of new work but I will save it for a future show. That will be fun to show again. Proper.
Love (or the lack thereof):
Dated a guy. Got dumped. Dated a guy. Dumped him.
Had an epiphany recently too. I have spent way too much negative energy on Mr. Carpenter. I mean, I've never really been about grudges or bitterness. Why all of a sudden the constant waves of negative energy? And the jealousy? It's ridiculous. He's a guy coming out at 26. I've decided that the right thing to do (at least according to my own principles) is to be there for him. The hardest thing is to discover an enemy but to be able to forgive him.. I feel more free now. Less clouded. I'm happy with my revelation.
And that's it for now. I will have some fun pics up soon of my crazy weekends. Still partying, still being the hipster that I am.. So I must share it with my 12 readers.
God knows, everyone's switching over to myspace now anyway.
Anyone see the new Madonna movie? And listen to the new CD? Yeah, I think it's alright too. Let's hope some crazy dubs come out.
Ah, gotta be up at 7 AM to get to the other side of the city. My bed is calling.
