I have officially graduated from my professional development program. And though the day was filled with hokey self-nurturing activities, I had a good time. Learned a lot from working with others.
And the hot maintenance guy watering the gardens kept me interested for the day.
Last night, we went to my friend's boat and cruised around the islands. I have never laid on the deck of a boat and tanned before so it was a bit of a yuppie treat for me.
Ate lobster tails, smoked cigarettes, drank like a fish.. It was the perfect day.
Lately, I've been finding myself less and less involved with the culture scene. I'm still shooting film and compiling all my photographs but rarely do I show any of them. And I don't hit any festivals, art shows, concerts.. Nothing.. I'm a BAD hipster. BAD hipster.
But I guess work is consuming my time and my thoughts. It's such a crucial time period right now and my caseload is almost 750. I feel personally responsible for 750 people. Every name that comes up adds an extra knot to my stomach.
So I seem to be trying to balance it all out with time at the gym (took my first Cyclefit class yesterday morning) and some R&R.
I'm burnt out. It's apparent to everyone except myself. But I miss knowing everything, downloading every album, being at every significant event.. I'm just too.. tired...
But this art fag ain't ready to hang up his Adidacolors yet. I feel a rejuvenation coming.
There are a couple of options that are floating around my head..
Go back to school - Journalism or Media Studies. Or Fashion.
Law school. Hm.
Spend a year working with an NGO overseas.
I applied for 3 jobs. Hope I at least get some callbacks for interviews.
Start working on promoting my grant proposal.
Quitting my job and just hanging. Doing photography, trying to get shows, setting up a website, assisting..
Anyway, this is too much for me right now. Gotta finish my laundry, make lunch..
